For so many years I have been praying for a better life. The life that I can be able to do things for my family; to provide food every day for them; to buy them clothes when seasons change; and buy them presents on their birthdays and Christmas days.
One day God had blessed me with an employment and I automatically saw myself fulfilling all my dreams and desires I had about my life and plans for my family. What I didn’t see was the temptation that can come with the job I was desperately looking for. I prayed for the job, but I forgot to pray for the strength to fight the temptations coming with that job.
I fell in a trap of drinking alcohol. I didn’t plan for that to happen but, I was exposed to another life with nice things that were easily accessible and it was for me to start. I started with the knowledge that I can get any drink anytime I wanted. I slowly lost myself in my drinking behaviour. As I was losing myself in my drinking I was also losing touch with the plans and goals I had for my family. I am talking to you right now I don’t have a plan on how I am going to survive December month. I am swallowed by nice times and I happened to forget where I come from. I thought I was being young and doing what young people do. I only wanted to have fun, I didn’t want it to be my habit.
My life right now is worse than before. At least before I had an excuse for not having what I wanted. My excuse was the fact that I wasn’t working, but now I am working and I still don’t have anything to be proud of.
What am I going to show for my hard work now, when others will be buying new cars, new furniture, and renovating their houses? How long am I going to entertain the whole world with my hard work? How long am I going to keep disappointing my loved ones? I want to change and now. I hope I am not too late to make my family proud again.
If there is anyone out there who is everywhere with everyone entertaining friends and the world, wake up and think of your family and get back to them and do what is right before it’s too late.
